Hi all! Yes, it is me. The VERY inconsistent blogger. To be fair, I am also back at work full time and writing for fun seems like a luxury right now. But my boys are on a camping trip and my baby girl is asleep for the night, so I made a date with my laptop.
I am making my way through our surrogacy story and this post is about our baby shower! Aside from our gender reveal party, this was one of the top highlights for me. I had wondered what it would be like to attend my own baby shower without my own beautiful bump, but it turned out to be just as special and perhaps even a bit more meaningful.
My parents moved into a home last summer with an amazing view! Just months after an epic move (they lived in their old home since I was 5), they graciously offered to host the event. My mom and sisters (Wendy and Beth) and my friend Mandie started chatting over email and making plans for the big day. Other family friends offered to do drinks and extra decor. My tribe is REALLY good at throwing parties and I was so honored to be on the receiving end of all their efforts.
Not many know this, but my husband is a trained chef. He attended culinary school while we were engaged and newly married. He makes the very best risotto I have ever tasted. He also had his own catering company for a bit, so he offered to do all the food for the day.
That morning I got ready with a silly grin on my face. I couldn’t believe this day was actually here! I had been to many baby showers over the years, and even had to turn some invitations down during my darkest days. I had my own showers when I was pregnant with Jack. But today felt different. After an awful road of loss, it was time to celebrate SO much! With BabyG, we never made it to this day. The invitations had been sent out and plans were made, only to be cancelled in the end.
But today was REAL. Stacy was pregnant with our baby girl and it was time to party!
We all gathered on a Sunday afternoon and it was lovely from start to finish.
After everyone had settled in, I shared a few words with the group. Sharing my “speech” with you is the best way I can convey my feelings about this day and the amazing women in my life I was able share it with. I will close by including it below and I think the pictures speak for themselves (thanks again to Wendy Hogan Photography for documenting the day)!
This is a day I will always treasure.
First, I want to thank my crew- my mom, Wendy, Beth and Mandie for throwing this beautiful shower. They all worked so hard over the last few weeks to make this special. At times, it has been hard to believe that this is even real- that this baby is coming and she will be our daughter. Having moments like today to stop and celebrate, makes it feel real. So thank you so much.
Second, I want to thank all of you for coming and for the role you have played in my life, and the role you will play in this baby’s life. Our family has been through many losses in our attempt to build our family. And you- our wonderful community- have been there for us in every way possible. Whether you prayed for us, wrote a card, helped us financially after we lost [BabyG], just laughed with me when I needed it, or mourned in tears with me- thank you. I see God in the way He uses community- the way we can walk together and hold on tight during the storms that threaten to take us down. You all have been the literal hands and feet of God that helped me walk during the wind and rain of our roughest storms. Thank you.
And lastly, I wanted to say some words to Stacy. When I handed [BabyG] back to her mom last year, something in my heart died for the first time. My world lost its color. A new cynicism took root that had never been there before. I wish I was stronger and could say that I sailed through that season with grace and dignity, but I can’t. I was broken, angry and hopeless that redemption would ever happen in our story. And then you walked up to me at church. It was the second time we met and you offered to give me the world. And in an instant, I started seeing some color again for the first time. How could I not? It was such a beautiful and sacrificial offer and it demonstrated the best of our humanity and what happens when we let God use us for His purpose for us. It took my breath away and it still does every day. So thank you. You are not only giving life to my precious baby, but you have changed me to the core in all the best ways. I know that this baby won’t get your eye color, smile, or any of your genes, but my hope and prayer is that she is just like you. I hope she is brave, kind, full of faith, generous, and humble. I hope she trusts God the way you do and that she lets Him use her to profoundly change the lives of those around her for the better. I am so grateful to call you my friend and look forward too all that is ahead.
Giving my “speech”
Not sure why I am making this crazy face, but I love the pink mountains in the background. And the twinkle lights? Magical!
This was such a special day. Thank you to everyone who celebrated with us!